A new life ~

Hmm ... living out a new life ... trying to put down my past ... thx yuan sheng and all my friends ... i will gambate and live up a new life ... yosh yosh ~ ...

lets see ... yesterday, went out with my nu er ... cause she is trying to brighten me up ... bringing me to buy guitar ... well ... bought a Ltd Forest - 10 ... the top part look nice but de butt is big ... gah .... i must practice more on it ... nu er is a nice person ... hmm .. though you have school work still pei daddy go out ... hope you get good grades ...

well being trying to avoid ... only avoid can make me put it down ... some ask me block or what ... but i just choose to avoid ... it is the best way ... though when i see your msn online , i willl started feel sad ... but i will be alright ...

yosh ~ gambate minna-san .... good luck and thx for all ...

The 1st day of life without you ~

Life without you , everything i do is always not right ~ feeling down now ... suppressing my sadness .. trying to bring out happyness ... a fake mask ...

For minutes and on ... was wondering should i msg u or nt ... finally , decided not to , doesnt want to disturb you anymore ...

Thanks John , accompany me for drinks last night ... even drink so much i cant even get drunks ... induce in sadness ... thinking of you whole night ... guessing life will be a pain without you ... never sleep ... not even went to school ...

Finally , I will be still waiting for you .....

Lurving you one last time .......

I am lost at this time ... cried ... emo-ed ... what this all have been expected ... but ... tears cant be controlled ...

Given you .. hoping you will have a better life ... nothing can compare to the sadness i feel ... But still , lurving you one last time ...

Goodbye my love ...

Wait For You Forever ~

I really miss her ~

Hmmm ... its been so long ever since we started out ~ its already 5 months and 10 days ~ although many things come and gone ~ yet the feeling i have for her still nvr cease ~ but instead is getting more ~

Due to her school , really didnt wan to disturb her at all so that she could concentrate ~ but i guess i still miss her lots and every moment ~ its okay , for her , i will wait ~ even i have to wait till i die or what ~ nvr de less miss her as usual ~

Tml , we all are having a overnight bbq at east coast ~ hope we have a great time though our group is kinda of crazy ~ hahaz ~ hmm ~ and today , for de bbq , we actually went to ntuc and bought stuff for it ~ it is kinda of fun ~ then we decided to bought a bottle of vodka so i went to buy ~ lol .. de seller look at me and ask for ic cause i look lik 16 ~ lol ... nvm about tat i am short anyway ~~~~~~~~~ bought bleach for wii and went over to victor house and play ~ omg ... it is fun ... but the consequence after the game is a price to pay ~ lol ~

and night came ~ time for a rest after all those crazy stuff ~ yet tml have more crazy stuff to do ~

finally ~ hope she is okay ~ hearing so much about her yet cant do a single things for her , make me really , shall i say sad or shall i be angry to myself ? it really hurt when u cant do anithing when ur partner is having problems ~ haiz ~ all i can do now is to pray to god and hope she is okay ~

Miss u realli lots ~ =(

Feelings and Blogs

Finally , after such a long time ~ feel like blogging out all of my feeling ~ still think ... blogging is the best way to let u release all the troubled in your mind ~

Kinda of emo recently ~dun feel like going out nor do things ~ anyway , it is kinda of hurt when someone hurt u without noticing ~ jealousy is one thing ~ coldness is another ~ feel like dont care about anything de feeling is = dying ~ somewhat have been trying to use maple and studies to cover up all those kind of feeling ~ guessing and wondering so much ~ though in the end nothing come out right ~ kinda bored of being alone ~ songs have been healing and opening up my wound again and again ~ bringing out more guessing wondering ~

This kind of feeling , i dont like it but what can i do ... i chooses to sit down aside and dont bother about the world ~ escaping the reality ~ hahaz ~ stupid decision right ? Anyway pledge myself to do well for subjects since there is nothing else i bother to care le ~ i wonder iszit a sudden thinking ? who noes ~

Anyway , today is valentine day ~ happy valentine day everybody , to u and to all my buddy ~ kinda of feeling better when i say my friend and his girl ~ though i am alone , but still happy for them ~ okay here i stop ~ cya around next time ~

Decided to post after a long time ~

School ~ School ~ School ~ as usual , joined japanese class ~ so monday and tuesday will be busy in school ~

Tml is Wednesday ~ dunno wad happen , de school PE has been cancelled , and be replaced by some amazing race at sentosa ~ boring ~ I WAN MY PE BACK ~ T_T

Played Monster Hunter Freedom 2 with wenqi they all , thx alots guy , for helping me to make tigarex armour na ~ =D

Just Realize , Me and John had not run for 2 times le ~ I WAN TO GET THIN ~ -punch my tummy-

Haiz ~ Karlyn Chan at NZ ne ~ Time different is 5 hrs ~ so i can hardly see her anymore ne ~ It is lik when i sleep at midnight , she wake up ... she sleep , i jus in de evening ~ but daijiobu ~ i will wait on ~

Anyway , karlyn Chan ~ thx for msging me all along ~ Lurve u so much ne ~ Miss u so much too ~ T_T ~ -sit down and wait-

Hai Hai ~ this is where i stop ~ hope i will post again next time ne ~ Cya , minna san ~

Hahaz .. another day wor ~

today , went k box with vic , yan rui and john ... took some pic .. and john cam whore sia ~ zzz wadever ... the end ~

Jana ~